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i super hate what happen at work just nw.mf!
i think when im superr fck up, i cant even get my msg across.
its either i'l just spout of all the vulgarities out, or i'l talk nonsense & end it up with,
*whatever,im in no mood,dont talk to me.*
so anw, my mind isnt in a stable state right now.
nt because what had just happen at work..but everything else thats been bugging me
for quite some time up till now.
when sth hits me, evrything else just starts tumbling down.
i was sooo in need to talk to ___ just now.not just because of whatever shit happened at work.
that...fck-care! i have many other stuffs that have been clogging up my once-ohh-peaceful mind.
but mybe, now he hasnt got the time...for me myb? :/
im not that kind of person who would dig back the past again & again...
but well, in some circumstances,yes i do.
i keep wondering to myself.... those 2 words..'WHAT IF.....'
& maybe..just maybe..everything may have fall into place.

ever wondered...who you really am?
a person who evryone thinks that u're a goodie-two-shoes girl..scoring gd grades etc.
but the fact is..u're the wild person..who dares to be diff.& the exact opposite of what ppl think.
OR
a person who evryone thinks that u are a failure.thinks that u are a disgrace to the society
because how u dress & act.
but the fact is...u're the most knowledgable person around..be it academic or social wise.

ahhhhh.okey maybe i need to be away from evrything.
be myself.& not let my mind wonder off too far.
i've made mistakes a little too much.

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im very thankful with fyz for being there for me though.
didnt go home straight after work..instead,met him at void deck & chilled frm 11+pm to 2am.
& yes,i was soo in need for the talk too. thanks dude! :D

mr __ , are u for real?. MIA again?! fck.